As Irambintsafia I must admit, I have done not much service to my mother, Safia.Instead, she as my parent, has served me ( which I will never be able to repay) for all my years on earth. I am not shaming myself, or showing off humility by saying this.
There are many reasons for these words to be assembling through my thought process on to the screen, but the one I want to consciously bring attention to is that we as humans will always feel inadequate and inept in one relationship or another from time to time.
I have not been a good daughter/son
I have not been a good wife/husband
I have not been a good sister/brother
I have not been a good mother/father
Not been good ……..
Aware, present, proactive, calm,confident, reassuring, compassionate, empathetic, cool and collect ( there aren’t enough positive buzz words that might be able to satisfy the definition of good!)
⛔️Constantly showing up is a myth.
💡Consistently trying with failures and success is truth.
Our stories of shame, blame,failure, missed opportunities, disappointments are harsh realities.
💡As much as we would like to erase them, they are done with. As soon as they happen, they become our past experience.
💡The effect of “what happened” is where our stuck happens.
💡I have learned that once we start focusing on the next steps, the next chapter, the process of healing after being hit is where our resolve and freedom lies.
I will not minimize the pain and agony of pushing through the stuck. It’s unbearable at times. And no one but I hold the might to push through it.
💡Our pain waits for our healing to take hold of our life steering!
I can’t tell you to stop disappointment from happening, I am suffering from one as I wrote this!
But I can reassure you, we will be ok!
🏞Like this river flowing beneath my feet, it shall pass too!
There is no easy way to say this, dear you, we all are a mix of Blahs and Ahas!
Does that makes us BLAHAHAS🤪?
Own your BLAHAHANESS!
💗There is only one like you fellow BLAHAHAI
اَللّٰهُمَّ اِنِّیْ اَعُوْذُبِكَ مِنَ الْھَمِّ وَالْحَزَنِ وَالْعَجْزِ وَالْكَسَلِ وَالْجُبْنِ وَالْبُخْلِ وَضَلَعِ الدَّیْنِ وَغَلَبَةِ الرِّجَالِ
O Allah! I seek refuge in You from worries and grief, and from helplessness and laziness, and from cowardice and miserliness and from the overpowering of debt and domination of the people.اے ﷲ ! بے شک میں فکر و غم، عاجزی و سستی، بزدلی و بخل، قرض کے بوجھ اور لوگوں کے غلبے سے تیری پناہ چاہتا ہوں۔